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new bloggy..

2005-04-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

dear friends...

i have a new blog..so dis blog will b terminated in few mth times...
my new bloggy is..

http://sparklingstars.diary-x.com

welkum back...

2005-04-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

if u all r wondering where is dis gal....hahaha im back after 18 days of silence. opps!! im bz wif usual: werk/skol n my life wif darl. Im in e exam mood altho my exam will be 1 mth and 1 week later hehe. Dis mth is really so pathetic. Probs wif everything in my life. It si so terrible bt as i think back, its the way a life shld b. Maybe ALLAH wants to test my patience...therefore take it with an open heart coz whatever happened there will gd things coming up...insya allah.

Oh yah..ppl dis will be my last blog uwek!! uewk!! i think im nt gg to blog here my fren are helping me some html at some of the blogger. So wen it is done..ta-da...it will offically b my blog hehehe. Its the 3rd im changing...duh~ oklah i gtg need to talk to darl>

Before i left i would liek to wish darl a HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!! Heehehe both of us taking leave heehe for the sake of our anniversary which will b on the 20th!! eheheh...we r gg to snow city...ceh konon mcm honeymoon sey..hello!! bt not more then wat u think hor.....hahaha. (who is thinkg me or u? haha) Then we r gg to eat at somewhere..haha darl its your treat hehehe. I love u!! Altho we haf been together quite long, hmmm...i shld say, i am the most luckiest gal to have u coz u are 1 in a million..once in a lifetime..lah..lah..lah. Lets go thru the parts and parcel of life together...weeee!!

Happy birthday to US!!

2005-03-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

firstly...happy birthday to me (20/3), Cuzin Siti Nur Hudah (21/3), Mummy n Aunt (22/3)!! Wow!! Superb!! For dis year we dun really celeb 2gether coz of the bz days. This blog really shows how bz i am wif my werk n skol. Yest was our presentation, it is so wonderful....we organize a field trip to Canadian Pizza!! Lots of thanks to Rafi Khan (Big Boss), *darl*...u are the sweetest man in my life, Nazrin (chef) hahaha..u all reallly make it work!! Hip Hip Hurray....Hip Hip Hurray!! (its like the ntss cheer). Hey!! Juz now i went to interview at SparkleTots juz a few meter away frm my block. HYopefully i can get the positin coz its time consuming, by workg there i will save $70 each mth for the fares. 70 bucks can pay my bill duh~~Altho 2day is Mum b'dae, i still haf nt yet buy her present.i've got no ideas wat to buy for her. Any idea?? Okies i guess dats al dat i can update for today...i'll b back soon..Insya Allah.

The story of my ex....

2005-02-27T08:45:00.000+08:00

Dis is the pic during the hari raya season..i dunch noe which year is dat. Dis pic was taking at Sitinurain's house. Our colour code dat time was green. Haiz...i dun regreat breakin up wif him, afterall as i looked upon my life now im happy with my *darl*. Next to me us Aisyah Md. Amin we've been close during the sec sch time. Go to school together and eraly in the morning as we walk to school, she sometimes gave me breakfast hahaha bread...haizz i felt so paisey!! If i were to b with rafi i think its been 6 years oredi..wow!!

Okies now i tell you why i bring up dis matter. Hmm..on 22/02/05 Rafi called me around 1pm and granny told me im working n will b back at 5.30pm. My granny asked him who is dat...then he told my granny "A long time fwen..". When i called my granny at 2.30pm to inform her dat i'll b back late so dat she won't wait for me for lunch. I was shocked wen granny told me dat a guy called me n wen asked his name granny told me it was a "long time fren..." I can't do my work at dat time coz i kept thinking who..?? All my fren rarely called me at home instead they will call me on my hp. As i get home at 6.00pm garnny told me, he called me again at 5.30pm. I get so suspicious n check my IDD caller. I review all the no and realised dat there is 2 no. dat i dun recognise there4 i just "gamble" and call dat no. When the he pick up the 1st quest he asked was "U still remember Rafi??" i was like huh...yah n was very shocked dat he wud called me after a long long time. N the next quest was" How u n yasser??" i was like ooopss!! n tld him dat im nt wif Yasser animore. Yasser is the caused y i broke up with Rafi. He was at Mandai Camp serving his NS. We chatted for quite sometime, recalled all the old time days n i sincerely told him dat i haf a new boifren oredi...dats *darl* He just want both of us to b fren n respect dat i haf someone dat i love. I told *darl* abt it n he was quite worried at the moment n i told him dat i will neva patch wif rafi back no matter wat happened. Anyway, Rafi message me dat he had thrown the ring dat he gave it to me few years ago but still kept the blue sweater dat i gave to him for his b'dae. He cried wen he saw dat sweater b4 he departure. While chatting with Rafi i realised dat he had changed a lot haizzz....i hope he will change for good dis year. I noe he dun like to smoke but nw he smoke n do lots of nonsense things..n wat i can do is pray dat he will change like the way i know him 7 years ago! He invited me to his sister wedding...Rosinah (Melor). I wonder how he look like now?? hmmm i wonder how shima (his younger sister) look like now?? I wonder how his mother will react wen i told her its me...liyana, rafi's ex gf?? Rafi did not tell his mum dat im coming today for his sister wedding i hope *darl* will nt get so over jealous. Muax!! *darl* dun worry ok..trust me im loyal to u n will only love u. *Dral* i dun noe wat to wear?? Okeis lah dats all for dis entry. Im trying to forget everything abt him on move on with *darl*

Yesterdae..

2005-02-20T21:41:00.001+08:00

lets talk abt yest coz it was a wonderful dae!! Heheh me n *darl* went out as usual saturdae man!! its so call our outing dae..hehe dis is the normal routine if both parties r werking during the weekdaes. We went to lots of places let me name it huh..Marina Square, Suntec City, City Link, Bugis, Jurong Point n blah blah blah. Absolutely!! I get a feet-ache for the long distance!! N im wearing heels hahaha..same old thing! Owuch!! Hm....dats wat happened if it is a "no bike day"!! Afterall its still the same when riding a bike, its still hurt IF i sit too long. Hmmm...let me see wat i boutgh after travelling so far...hmm i get myself a pair of leather slippers..flappy...flappy. i bought it coz i realli need it unfortunately my former slippers broke into 2 (weird rite)! Dunch u noe dat i really dunnoe hot to walk properly n my shoes/slipper will nt last long ahah!! The other reason y i bought dat slippers is b'coz i want to haf the same slipper as *darl* bt too bad its nt the same design. N i spent the rest of my money on FOOD!! Yummy..yummy.. (licking my fingers n tongue). Hmmm...*darl* bought t-shirt frm OP coz datz the only shop dat he can find his size XL..yeah my laling is so gigantic but 'luckily' he get a gerlfwen who is so small/short bt absolutely cute (am i rite laling?) hehe! Watz else does he bought...hmm..ohh cordeless phone n of course FOOD!! Since im wif *darl* i really eat a lot bt neva gain weight hmmm unlike wif my ex they oways bring trouble in my life n i can grow horizontally hmmm...it is so weird! oh yah!! wen we reached JP, we went inside the OP shop coz there was sale and we found out dat the shirt dat *darl* had juz bought at Suntec is twice the price at JP!! I can c his shocking face bt indeed cute haha!! Okies i guess dats all for dis entry. By the way all the pic below is nt yesterdae pic its a long time pic during our outing..hehe!!

*darl* n me outside Mc Donald..both juz came back frm werk!! phew!!

Jurong Hill...juz love dis place so windy n romantic hahahah

Jurong Hill...Dis pic is facing the Jurong Island

dinner....yummy! We ate at Ayer Rajah Foodcourt

hehe me riding *darl* bike...

Hopefully everything will go on very fine...

2005-02-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

a day at werk..so tiring..i call it 'a rushing dae'.?! The most happy thingy was it's Humairah n Putra Akmal B'dae n all the kids got 2 goodie bags!! Wow!! I've ate some of those 'juncky food' in those colourful goodie pckt. I juz love to eat those 'rubbish food' while im stress! There is lots of thing in my brain...field trip, practicum, assignment (hey! i thing i've been repeating those 3 words thruout the last entry..sowie). I need to settle it by e end of the mth! Alhamdulillah...i manage to go to Mak Long hse to observe amirul again! I play ball with him, hide n seek, we solat 2gether hehe...he is so cute. While playing with him i realised dat i totally 4get abt all the stressful thing in my mind!! Its fun to haf kids yah!

hey i think im too tired...lots of things to say out bt i really need to rest..sowie its a half way entry.

wat is e day 2day??

2005-02-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

flu..flu..flu..flam..flam..flam..yucks!! ahaz!! dats wat im down wif! Buti guess it gd coz it really helps to remove all the dirt in my nostrils. So lazy to go mad bt no matter wat haf to drag myself there. Aniway i love the last lesson coz of the superb ustaz! He is so funnie n very the mak-nenek type. Tak kering guci dibuatnyer n his lesson are full of knowledge thru his own experience. He is the up-to-date ustaz who knows everything- APM, the top hitz music, Aci being robbed! I wonder how he knows those information. Bt there is one mission dat i need to do, i need to find all the suarh2 yasin in my werk place (al-khair mosque). Coz he told me there is some error in e tafsir so i need to inform the Imam so dat there will b no misunderstanding in our religion.

Okies so all the hols are gone n nw im waiting for my march hols ahahaha. Datz means i need to start doing my observation on my nephew (amirul) n oso 2 other pre-school children. wah!! there is lots of things dat need to b done. Oh yah!! 2m will b my presentaion on Toy's Safety. I hope Karuna will nt ask us lots of things coz i may get panic n nervous n im sure all the info will b jam in my 'computer'. Im prayin hard dat 2m will go on smoothly...Insya ALLAH. Mizi too having test 2m, hopefully he wil do well n pass wif flyin colours. My prayer will oways b upon everyone who is in difficulties...amin.

I am so happy coz my room is absolutely clean n tidy but i can bet everyone who is reading dis dat it will get messy & untidy again by the end of the week ahahah!! It all b'coz of the laziness in me n oso the tired-ness btw scholing n werking. I think one fine day i really need to haf a rest, dat will b after i finish all my studies. I need to remove those blue-black panda eyes!! Errr it makes me look so ugly with those 2 things.

Muharram

1) Menjadi muslim yang taat pada ALLAH s.w.t dan mengharapkan keredha-han ALLAH s.wt.
2) Sabar dgn apa jua yang ditempuhi
3) Kelembutan (dats e meaning of my name in Arab). my parents told me dat i am so rough n i guess dis is the time to b more gentle in the wateva i do ahaz! I think i need more practise 2 b a very gentle person. I realised dat i may nt be gentle in doing things bt im gentle at heart my heart senang ter-guris u noe..hahaha!! Yeupzz its true. kehehhehekehekeh...

dats all for 2day.....wat a day!

errr..

2005-02-07T17:27:00.000+08:00

im havin difficulties in wakin up for subuh prayer dis daysz coz been studyin and doing lots of werk aft tokin to *darl*. by the way *darl* b'dae is ard e corner ehehe he will b 26 woopss!! Go to werk feeling so lazy as usual draggin myself to e bus-stop n forcing myself to get up the 985 bus stairs. I am so lazy to go to werk dis dayz coz im lookin 4ward for the chinese new year hols!! wed im gg to bukit timah hill with my Big fam. Can't wait to c all the makcik's n pakcik's going up the hill ahaz!! I tot of gg to East Coast with *darl* weeee cycling!! Bt i'll c1st, if my leg does nt ache then we'll proceed haha bt i haf nt yet tell *darl* to take off. *darl* if u read dis do think abt it or mayb we go 2 other place k.

Ohh!! By the wat rite nw im wasting my time blogging b4 gg to skool!! Tokin abt skol..hmmm lots of practicum, observation, assignment, n da da da.....hmmm im stress!! Bt i think i need to enjoy life wif ma family, *darl* n frenz just to ease my mind n dun think of skool n werk!! Opps!! i've nt yet do my Lesson Plan...oh no!! Ahhhh!! 4get abt it i dun care, hopefully my VP will nt b comin 2m there4 we no need to hand it our lesson plan ahaz!! She sms me saying dat her child was being suspected of havin HFMD. Hmmmm..hopefully Iman will b orite! Amin...

i can't wait for lots of things such as:

1) *darl* 26th b'dae...heheh
2) Chinese New Year Hols
3) Weekends...weekends...weekends
4) My b'dae, siti b'dae, mummi n aunt's b'dae all in March
5) March 1 week hols
6) My anniversary wif *darl*....hehehhe

if u all realise all those things dat i can't wait is all the hols...dat says dat i am really lazy to go werk n skol n i need REST, ENJOYMENT!! Ok im gg to skol now c u all one day...mizz u all!!

### *darl* do fetch me tonite...mizz u lots n u r my laling n im scared of losing u harrrby!! Muax!! Muax!! Muax!!

sick....

2005-02-02T11:20:00.000+08:00

hehe..dis is the 1st time i blog in the morning on weekdays. I'm on MC for 2days. Feel so weak, coughing, flu and slight fever. Went to doc wif granny yesterdae. Slept all the way yesterdae, the medicine really work. Dats good!! I think i really need sufficient rest. By the way, working with children is quite dangerous too coz children haf lots of virus. Recently my student haf HFMD (Hand Foot Mouth Disease), stomach flu, and etc. There4 im too scared to get infected i visit the doc, alhamdulillah doc said there is nothing wrong with me except i need lots of rest. The doc is my mad classmates...Doc. Iskandar. Thanks to him 4 the 2 days MC. Suppose to meet *darl* bt im too weak to go out. Sowie *darl*

I am very very angry with my V.P coz of dis story. Early in the morning i msg my V.P and told her dat i'm nt coming to werk coz i'm on MC. N she replied " Haf u gone to the doc?" N obviously i told her "YES"...Can't she even think/recall i told her that i am on MC n with the word MC it is so clear i went to c doc. ?? U think i took it frm where?? Bullshit!! Then i told her dat my MC is valid till 2.02.2005 and u noe wat she replied?? "I guess u no need to come for the rest of the weeks oso can." She is being so sarcastic, mulut tak beralas!! Bt im tryin to b patience n ignore those msg. Fine if she can handle it by herself then go ahead. This is my 1st time i am on MC ever since i start work last year!! She tot i'm playing a fool is it!! Tell her bullshit!!

happy happy dae!!! hurray!!

2005-01-30T08:16:00.000+08:00

after calss yesterdae, *darl* fetch me then guess wat we went to Tampinese Mall hahaha!! So far, my leg was aching coz of too long sitting on the bike. We park at the footway n we kena saman ish!! 70 bucks ok!! I told *darl* Usually we park at the footway ard west nothing were to happened but it was an unlucky day for us. Went to the Mall..fuhyooo so crowded!! Its been a lotn time i never go to Tamp Mall since i broke up wif Rafiuddin. Forget abt it...its been 7 years we r nt together! Cinta monyet ahaha!! Actually i wanna trade in my T610 bt the starhub at Tamp Mall is so crowded futhurmore i did nt bring my charger 2 trade-in heheh!! At last we went to West Mall n i asked bro to bring my charger. After all the paper signing, the dealer asked me to show my bill receipt!!! So i haf to run back home to get it!! It was so tiring, actually its my fault coz i just paid the bills dat afternoon!! The bad thing was, all my phonebk gone coz i did nt save it to SIM hahaha. So now my nokia 7260 is juz infront of me. I am gg to buy new casing ahahha, scared liao!! Okies dats all i just want to share my happiness coz i've juz bougth new phone.

Weeee!! 2day is Fridae....

2005-01-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

it was a tiring week for me. My partner took CSL for 4 days wow! coz her child was infected wif HFMD. I haf to do all the job all by myself bt glad to say there is some t'cher who r very helpful enuff to help me alaong. the nursery class went home late for 2 days ahahah juz b'coz of thier t'cher. watever! Actually i am nt feeling well too, bt i need to sacrifice if nt nusery calss will b way way behind!!. I've lost my voice after singing n giving lots of instructions to the nursery classes, as u noe they r still freshie. My body is achin coz of nt enuff rest n i noe i shld haf sufficient rest. By the way i started to feel very sleepy after talking to Mizi till late morning n of course *darl* was very2 angry, dissappointed wif me ahaz!! I noe i shld'nt do dat to *darl* n talk to *darl* instead...okeis im sorie kayz! Now i need to pay back all my sleepin time ahaz!! Skol is getting stressful n tougher. There is lots of notes to read up for revision n haf to complete my practicum n assignments. I can't figure out wat to buy for *darl* for his b'dae?? Frenz wud u help me to figure out something to gif to *darl*?? I want to buy Nokia 7260!! I hope to get it by feb plsss....!! I really need a new hp, my sony eric T610 is getting crazier. I've nt yet buy bro b'dae present hahah...mum & dad bought him arsenal jersey(red) written with this name in it. It is so nice n guess wat i ask mum n dad to buy for me arsenal jersey (blue) long sleeve and write my name too hahaha!! Mum's b'dae n dad's b'dae coming up..ohh no haf to save up!! arghhh!! dat's all for dis entry...enjoy ur weekends!!! Muacks!!

Sundae...a very enjoyable day!!

2005-01-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

y i said sundae is an enjoyable day coz....I meet *darl* after so long!! Kinda mizz *darl* so much!! Actually our only plan is 2 survey digi cam. We went to westmall, as usual Harvey Norman n all mobile stores are pack wif ppl. Okies to shorten the story, we went to JP to eat our late lunch at Banquet. I haf no appetite i dunch noe y. We went ard JP and we stop at Courts...n there is a digi cam promo. 1st look i fall in love wif those digi cam. Actually the promo is very worth it, n guess wat?? *darl* bought 3.2 Mega Pix digi cam!! It cost 300++ with free tripod, cleaning kit, filrm camera, n 258 MB Compact Flash. I am very very jealous!! N at starhub there is hp promo ish!! N it is very very cheap, the sad thing is i am broke!! Nvm...b patience, *darl* comfort me by telling me dat there will b another promo coming up soon!! then, after all the clicking n snapping of the new digi cam we proceed to Science Centre. Wow!!! I juz love to go such places...we watched 'THE NATURE OF FORCE'. It was so great weeeeeeeeeee!!

*My junior juz told me dat she saw me at JP 2day..heheh!!

Selamat Hari Raya Haj...

2005-01-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm....i wonder y i woke up on time dis morning. Usually i will find myself very hard to wake up at 5.30am in the morning. Maybe, my mind had oredi set dat 2day gg to go solat raya at my werk plc (masjid al-khair). Dad, told us yest day we will leave b4 7am haizz...at last we went out 7.15am. I saw Haji Rashid, Ustz Nasir, e recepti'n sis, my student -ahmad ihsan (he is so cute n very quiet boy) and Muhd. Faruq. Both of them were shocked to c me praying there...hehe!

After eating our breakfast- pulut, kebab with rendang plus so many food to mention. We went to one of the 2 masjid which provide 'korban' todae dat is Msjid Omar Salamah n...i dunnoe wat is e name of the mosqu. I love dat mosque coz it is like so quiet, like 'kampung-kampung'. The kambing is so cute there are nt does grey/white curly fur ship its wat e old ppl say...kambing kacang. Kind of funnie sey. The nasi briyani there kinda nice..its briyani dam!! I only taste a little bit..'jamah' sikit coz my bro fren offer mah. Daddy n bro went to Jumaat prayer whole the girls do some preparation b4 our relatives came. everyone flooded my house ard 2.30pm....everyopne came except for Taufiq..uh uh...its nt Taufiq Barisah. Hey!! Talking abt Taufiq Batisah, hmmm i like to see him w/o make-up..if nt he looks like wat like dat!

Oh yah b4 i forget...we nt only celebrate eid oso my only bro b'dae. He is gg to b 13 dis Sunday. His b'dae is special coz we do some 'doa selamat/kesyukuran' with takbir since its eid. He looks so happy, actually i haf nt yet give him his present coz no $ liao!! Bt dis yr im getting him digital watch. Hmmm...okies i guess dats all for dis entry..i try to put in my eid pic k. At last...i've put it all my pic in my webby. Just click at the "Ms Liyana Pic collection" n u will c al thsoe pic!!

2005-01-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

nite class is so boring! 1st tym in my SIM period i dun pay full attention to the lesson! Very tired BUt happy coz 2m im nt werking coz of the pre-hajj hols! dats the best thing werking at the mosque. My mum jus told me dat the slaughtering of the sheep will b postpone till sundae, the news said dat the sheeps will only arrive s'pore on sat...there is lots of prob after the 11 sept incident. Dis yr flight to Makkah are also delayed,i pity the ppl gg to hajj coz they haf to wait at the airport for few hrs...maybe this is thier 'dugaan'. I wonder wat my granny cook for hari raya hajj?? hmm..hopefully she cooks delicious food for me to gulp haha!

Im in love wif the rite guy n person. Im nt gg to tell dat person dat im in love wif him coz i just want him to know dat i exist in his life. Im taking things slow n steady. Afterall i haf a long way to go. Need to finish up my studies 1st bt im gg to hold on to him only...Insya Allah. *darl* b'dae coming soon. Opps!! B4 celebrating his b'dae i got to hand up my project 1st n the date due is on Valentine's Day (by the way im nt celebrating it!).

You're so different from the rest of the world, but you cannot see it, you need to be told. I wish i could see what i saw in you, only then you will know that what i wrote is true. The first time i saw you it was so unreal, it was the day i began to feel taht i am falling in love with YOU!!

Maaf, bahasaku tonggang terbalik...

2005-01-18T19:34:00.000+08:00

sebenarnay telah ku plan utk menghabiskan paperwerk ku..tetapi oleh disebabkan kemalasanku dan ke'ngantok'kan ku aku abaikan segala-galanya. I was awoken by my hp, Mama kol telling me to get ready coz she is at J.E oredi, dgn kemalsan ku terus ke bilik air utk mandi tetapi jam mengatakan bahwa tak sempat utk mandi coz mama will b waiting!! Jadi ku tak mandi ptg hehe...tetapi sempat jugak 'J'. Muak ku kelihatan penat & lesu, seandainya ku dpt tido dgn lena haizzz.

Kerjaku semakin byk dan penat. Tadi ader teachers contact time, itu pun boring. Tahun ini aku harus mengendalikan Field Trip utk nursery. Dlm perjalanan pulang ku fikir dimanakah harus ku bawa bdk2 tu for field trip. I prefer them to haf fun not educational trip coz they r only nursery. In s'pore there is limited interesting places n my P wnat it to b indoor, as they r too young for outdoor. I tot want to go fish farm..where they can catch fish themselves...Fun rite!!
Baru ku tahu suasana alam pekerjaan sungguh penat dan byk tanggungjawab. Aku redha.

dari dulu aku tak serik2 bercinta hahahah..kan lagi bagus kalo berkawan sahaja! Kan lebih afdhal, menjauhkan dari benda2 yg meng'involve'kan godaan syaitan. I remember wat my dad said the rpevious years..."Nak buat aper ader bf sekarang, u noe as u go on in life u will meet even better person than ur own bf." N w/o any guessing i really think he is rite. Adakah aku telah membuat langkah yg wajar pda kali ini?? Ku belum dapat jawapannya....

sowie 4 nt blogging!!

2005-01-15T18:52:00.000+08:00

im too bz to blog n im too lazy n tired after a hard day at werk n skol. Im now dwn wif flu n the worst thing was i could not taste those delicious food!! I drag myself to skol altho i know my body are too weak. Afterall its an important subject based on my practicum. I want to do wel dis practicum coz i dunch want to retake this practicum A. This sem seems to b very hard coz there is lots of project n i haf 2 sacrifice most of my 'wonderful' time for dis course. i hope *darl* will understand me, im so sorry if i dun spent my time with u, u shld look at the bright side dear n its for our future too.

Dis days me n mizi become very close, in my inbox there is numerous messages frm him, i hope dis won't do any harm to me n *darl*. I oways warn myself dat there is limit in friendship..hahaha. I juz dunch like those 3rd party story n hopefully my story will b a happy ending...Insya Allah. My dad used to tell me dat as we move on we will find much more better person in our life..n its true!! U tell me, who don't want a gd bf/husband rite?? For me a religious person is more important than wealth and looks! But its difficult to find a person who pray all the 5 waktu....may i know why? Can't they sacrifice 5 min in thier working hrs?? The most they can do is pray jumaat prayer which is once a week!!! Last fridae i saw a bunch of student in a coffee shop laughing n enjoying themselves, whereas they shld b praying n the mosque is just next to thier skol. N i can say most bosses are understanding enuff to allow time to carry out our prayer. We live in multi-racial country, we respect each other.

** im sorry if my entry is too much....i juz need to let it out!!

Too bz

2005-01-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

to blog everydae. Everydae wen i reach home i feel so tired n will oways rest 1st. Since skol open i need to do lots of readings n researc n there is more project coming up...opps!! I wnat to do dis practicum well n i've choosen my nephew for the 1st practicum. I've just came back frm my sis hse...there is kind of 'doa kesyukuran' coz she just move out to a new hse at bt panjang. Haizz.... as years past by houses are getting smaller n smaller all b'coz s'pore is small n insufficient land. Furthurmore those houses are expensive..duh~. I dunch noe how is the situation wen my time come to buy house. While waiting for *darl* to come back frm werk..here i am blogging. My nephew is getting clever n more cuter!! He likes to trick ppl ahaz...n he will get close to anyone who hold a hp. 2m gotta get ready for mad. Oh yah!! My student are getting better as days past by and most of them love music n movement...therefore i need to haf lots of stamina for the jumping, crawling, leaping n more. I just love to b with them..altho they r a bit irritating wen they cried for their mummy, wen i reached home i kinds miss them a lot especially this cute boy by the name of Taufiq..so cute n clever!!

now i know..

2005-01-04T16:18:00.000+08:00

the feeling of overcrowded children shouting at the top of thier voice. The minute they show thier 'drama' i start to shiver especially wen i carry them. N most of them are big size n the teacher is very small size. I had a gd kick frm them. My spec was thrown n broke into pieces...it course me 90 bucks!! Im counting the number of days to weekends. I just pray hard so dat time really fly very fast. This weekend im pack wif activities....n mad start dis weekend. Im very eager to go to mad (as if) ahaaz..coz long time nva c my best buddy Ah'in!!! Ah'in....i miss u!!
I felt full now coz i juz gulp a full meal...bruuppp!! Oh yah i think i need to brush up my nursery rhymes..all went haywire!! Coz u noe dis nursery rhyme haf lots of version..n we haf numbers of teachers who learn diff version ahahaha. I guess dats all for todae..im off to the toilet to take a warm bath. N aft dat gg to fetch mummy at the nearest mrt station.

bro start sch at bt view sec...frm his face i can c dat he is happy bt im quite woried coz my bro is too friendly n he might get along wif a bad company. Im praying very hard so dat bro will nt mixed wif them closely. Hey..got to go..nature call!! ahahahaahhaah

phew!

2005-01-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

tot of staying at home and juz finish up my hols ahaz! bt mum drag me to go out 2gether. I've decided to go otu wif them coz i've finished key in all the pupils name n since there is no one at home to talk to. I feel so sad coz no money to shop bt hahaha mum are so generous, she asked me to take anything dat i like and i get myself a pinky dress!!! Tot of wearing it for Teacher's day ahahaha. I met my student at the hawker ctr while eating rojak india....hehe hakim seem so shy. Then went to TKC saw my colleagues....browsing some things. Hmmm....tomorrow werk!!! haiz.....i dunch like n lazy!! IM juz scared coz of my not-get-along colleagues! I hoep we can werk together as a team!! Hey!!!! Dis song is for *darl*....we just love dis song!!! Okies i guess i need to go..im so tired!! I'll blog tomorrow if im not tired.

my 1st...

2005-01-01T09:16:00.000+08:00

sneeze at 9.05am
person in my mind: My mum & dad
songi heard: Joget Mak Andam (radio)
person i saw: 2 bangladesh man holding a badminton racket
person i msg: *darl*
received msg frm: *darl* with a virtual kiss
thing dat i did: morning toilet
shirt & pants:OBS t-shirt n black track pants
weather: rainy day....cool (i wud like to slp again)
illness: flu
itch: my arm
dj i heard: Sempoi (azmi)
movie: Meet The Fockers
person i meet: *darl*
drink: Fruit Punch
meal: Turkey Naan (home-made)
present dat i gave *darl*: Hershey Kisses Chocolate in a cute bottle
call: *darl*
kiss: ahaz!!! Oh no...

*darl* tot of gg out if u todae bt the weather is raining...c how huh! maybe we cud just hang ard our area huh. I mizz u sowie can't talk to u yesterdae nite...sleepy. At last i we r gg to date on 1st Jan 05. Me n *darl* watched movie and just hang ard my area...it is so fun n great!! We ate a rush meal at BK ahaz!! I was reluctant coz everywhere we go everyone are rushing at the mobile shop...s'porean r so kiasu n moreover their ERS are outz! It was an unlucky for me not to get it..ish!! I said dis coz im broke! Hey okies dats for todae...i need to bathe if not *darl* will say dis..."haaaaaaaaaaa...bucuk!!"

*darl* ----> its worth to b patience k...just wait for the hp price to go down im sure u will get ur fav hp k. By the way *darl* thank you a lot for everything...hey its nice gg out with u 2dae...u noe i start miss-ing u oredi. Lastly...im proud to b loved by u!! I oso love u lots. Hope 05 will brings happiness to us.

last dae 2004

2004-12-31T16:06:00.000+08:00

firstly lets wish 'procrastina' happy 19 birthdae!!! May ur dreams come true yah!!!

2dae i need to update my last account in my thick diary of 2004!! N i will review all the things dat i did for the past 1 year. N 2m i will open a new book (diary) ahaz!! I got my 1st new year msg frm mizi ahaz!! Im sure he reached home (spore) oredi! *darl* been bz at werk since its the last day of the year. N after typing dis out im gg to hang up 2005 calendar hahahaha!!! See i am so 'semangat'. I dunch noe y i am so excited?? Hmm....time realli flies very very fast...blink blink link..its 2005 n im gg to b 20 the next 3 mth!! I feel dat i am still 15 ahahahahahah!!!

hey!! im chatting wif my long lost fren...iskandar!!! It is so coincidence!!! He used to like me and realli sanggup travel to s'pore to meet me!!!! Still remember bring him ard orchard n we eat at sakura. Dat was a nice moment!! Now while chatting with him, he look so different sey..... I get scared wen he told me dat he will send his family to 'masuk meminang' i was like huh!!! Then frm dat day onwards i dun chat wif him!! scared!!! N now im with another iskanadar hahahaha....yeah with *darl*!!!!

Okies!! i guess i got to go coz i need to do lots of things b4 new year!!! 2m i will update more!!

update

2004-12-30T17:28:00.000+08:00

opps! can't reali update too often since im gg to start werk next wk officially. I am so happy todae coz it's gg to b weekend and 2m im not werking!!! Im gg to rest until i feel so restless coz i got to enjoy my last hols!! Just now there is SGM so quite gd as time really flies very fast w/o doing anything ahaz!! I love to waste time coz im just too lazy to keep doing the same old thing everydae ahaz!

Yesterdae met *darl*, we went to search for hp. Me n *darl* decided to change hp next yr. Went to clementi ctrl...wah!! I miss clemeti ctrl a lot. I still remember during sch time sure go jln2 there after sch, eat chicken rice..yummy!! Wah!!! Clementi ctrl really change a lot..i think so or its juz me! Then he drove to ayer rajah foodcourt (west coast) bt it was closed for cleaning!! The rojak india is delicious!!! Ish!! At last we eat at Al-Azhar haiz..the food is yummy but there is not much dessert. Then we drove to bt panjang plaza just jln2 hahaha!

Next yr..will b the 1st year im werkign wif my new colleagues. I dunch noe if i can get along with her coz her body lang shows everything. That is the advantage in werking together with malays! I hope we can werk as a TEAM. Im praying very hard rite now so that 2005 will b a smooth year for me...INSYA ALLAH. I hope HE can help me along the way. I feel so thankful to HIM for giving me good health dis year n make my year a pleasant one. Everythign dat happen along my way in 2004 i received it with 'redha' and i believe watever happens there is 'hikmah disebaliknya'.

tired.

2004-12-27T20:02:00.000+08:00

woho!! I really left my bloggy bloggy all alone w/o updating ahaz! Im too bz to even switch on my PC. Just nw came back for werk, bt im not suppose to come back! Finish up with the decoration coz 2m will b our level open house..and after dis will start to clear upn hang up all the hands-on activity for the sch re-open on 3rd Jan. Tot of gg to see the fireworks for countdwn 2005 with *darl* bt i dun think mum will gif me coz by the time i reach hm will b 1 am in the morning siao!! The last time i went to c the fireworks was wif *darl* too during NDP ahaz! Tot of bringing along bro for excuse ahaz!! noti me! blueeek!!

*darl* not feeling well todae!! Cian de loh..cian de loh...haha i oways said dis wen i want 2 b mushy mushy wif *darl* ahaz! yeah!! tomorrow meeting *darl*. im craving for indian rojak so i am gg to pull *darl* to the most delicious rojak stall..heheh!!

Went to the library to borrow some flip-up books for kids!! its so cute, the librarian was so helpful to help me find those books!! hey got to go..need to help my cuz with his mp3. by the way i got something for u all...

p/s: if u wish to know more abt news ard the world my fren bro haz has create a website whereby u can share ur suggestion n opinion abt whats happen in our society. It is especially for the teenagers/ belia. U click on "BeRiTa" on my right hand column. C ya!!

2004-12-24T18:46:00.000+08:00

im so tired! i'm not dat really harpie aLtho 2m wil b weekend. I need to come 2 werk dis Mon duh~ actually im nt suppsoe to come, but haf to sacrifice my time to furnish my classroom since Tues will b our level big dae! wats make me happy 2day was.... after 3 years, at last we really arrange the furniture position to make it look even better and spacious. I just love the environment. I hate to draw up the charts, corners titles n everything. N i found out dat next year im gg to teach our chairman son and one of the LPM members soon too. Oh i think i haf to b careful wen teaching them ahaz!! Nolar...i think i just need the confidence and Insya Allah everythin will go on naturally. I must think that they r just those normal kids dat i've taught. 2005, will b a challenging year for me there4 im not able to bake cakes 4 friends n relatives. In additon, i haf new job durin the weekend/ sch hols. Extra job mean extra salary!! ahahah!! Y am i thinking abt $, hmmm...maybe b'coz i haf my own responsibility. Altho career is important for me but family n *darl* come first. Coz i dun think i can find my family else where, moreover i dun think i can get an even better *darl*....hmmm..lets see do think so?? Hmmm.....actually everyone is not perfect but each of us can change ourselves for the better to make ourselves perfect?? *darl* u noe wat i mean huh??

fuhyooooooo!!!

2004-12-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Fuhyooooooo!! Dozen of werk need to do b4 the 28th (Open House). Came back for werk after very long hols!! I was quite scared coz dis the 1st time im handling e nursery, and dis year im in-charge of the joint mosque sports day. So there is a total of 3 mosque (al-kahir, ar-raudah, n al-Iman) but it will only start ard may, but e preparation start the first mth. The happy thing is i still get my former partner as the co-teacher n dat makes things easier coz we know each other very well. I hope the other co-teacher will get along with me very well....the most important for me is TEAMWORK! I hope everything gg to run smoothly. 2m there is a level meeting, do some 'movement', attenndance list, enrolment list...okies im gg to stop talking abt skol. Evertime i start talking abt it, my mind wil go crazy coz i dunch noe if i can make it done on time ahaz! *darl* i want to say an advance sorry if i dun spent most of my time iwf u coz i will b very bz. Sowie k...but i will try to find time for u k. I trust u dat no matter wat u will love me and i will love u! I need to go now, coz im not feelin well dis few days. Need to get a sufficient rest.

Things i need 2 do todae...

2004-12-22T11:13:00.000+08:00

Ouch!! My neck is so painful ouch! Late morning, accompany bro to take his sch result. Alhamdulillah...dat he get e sch dat he really want..great!! Congratulations bro!! He went home wif his frenz while i proceed on my own. I continue to sear h a pair of shoes it hink i realli need it for werk. ahaz!! At last i found dis unique pair of shoe, i think *darl* won't like it coz its look like Aladdin. ahahaz!! *darl* oways gif me those one kind of look wen i try on those aladdin shoes. Bt i guess *darl* wud like it if i really love it. I've decided to eat at home todae coz im nt gg to spent my $ on foods since there is lots of food at home. After eating, i watched 'The School Of Rock' coz bro said dat show is farnie. Huh huh!! 2m haf to werk oredi!! I haf to b hardworking now coz i want to get the Sports Day project. Hope i can juggle up everythin..Insya Allah. Tot of wearing my new shoes bt hmmm.....not 2m but later during the Al-Khair Open House. Oh yah!! *darl* bought for me a huge and heavy turkey!! It looks so yummy yummy!! Mum tole me dat she wants to gather all her sister's 2 eat the turkey together. *darl* thank you so much. I can't wait to taste e turkey....i think im drooling!! ahaz! Granny love e delicacy dat u brought last syawal. hmmm..looks like *darl* trying to captivate my parents n granny..hehe.. Okies i got to go , need to sleep early (as if).
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1) Accompany bro to take his sch results
2) Return library books
3) Call Ju to confirm the time and dates, coming back for werk
4) Watch DVD..haha 2dae is the last dae to enjoy coz 2m im gg back 2 werk
5) Go Causeway Point ( Charles & Keith) to buy shoes
6) Waiting for granny fren to come
7) Fetch mumy frm werk

Werking dates : 23, 24, 28, 29, 30

Werking hrs: 9am to 4pm except on 28th (8am- 3pm) due to Open House

2004-12-21T11:39:00.000+08:00

woke up 5 min earlier b4 *darl* called me. As usual woke up ard 9.55am to watch 'Angel' (chinese series). Had my breakfast while watching, i still feel i eat so little. Today i tot of going to NLB to return all the books n decide not to borrow any more books coz next week i'll b busy werking and preparing 4 next year student. I've decided not to buy any shoes till i get my pay by the end of this mth! Wah! Looking at my diary i haf lots of errand to do....hp bills/insurance/NTUC card membership fees/madrasah fees.....luckily my sch fees mum paying for it phew!! If im bored todae hmm...im gg to bring granny out. It's been a long time i've never bring her out, realli mizz dat moment! Yeah!! Yeah!! im meeting *darl* tonite. Weeeeeeeee!!! I mizz takin a ride with him on his bike. The last time i took a ride was durin syawal, when we went for his friends wedding and i will neva forget the moment wen he jus 'beat' the red light. *Darl* dun worry k, nothing will happen k..juz pray hard dat u will nt receive any letter!! bluuueeeekk! Okies i need to go now, i had a stomachache. Bye!!

19/12/04

2004-12-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

yesterdae trip to Air Papan (Mersing) was cool man. I did nt took lots of pic of myself n family coz im bz hafing fun!! I swam and "played" wif the waves. Actually it is not sea bt ocean and the beach is so clean and beautiful. After bathing i eat n eat n eat. I love Johor banan fritters. It is so yummy especially wen u dip wif the black sauce hmmmm....yummy!!My nephew too was enjoying himself, he is not scared and kept splashing the water. The journey was abt 2hr and the road is so bumpy and i can't even take a nap! When the bus stop at kluang, i tot of Saiful, i wonder wat is the place of interest in Kluang?? We reached home ard 11pm, exhausted. My next trip will be during the March hols im gg to take cruise . I really had a very nice sleep, even *darl* called me i refused to pick up the phone ahaz!! Sowie *darl*...

2day..i tot of gg out to get myself a pair of shoes and bag but decided not to go out coz i need those $ to buy my bro his sch bag for next year xoz i've already promised him. Im feeling hungry rite now...maybe after writing dis im gg to eat while bro take over dis sit. Mum comin home late todae coz she haf a late meeting & *darl* werk till late nite hmmm....i guess tonite will b a bit bored coz i haf no one to talk to. Dis thurs i haf to come back for werk, i dunch noe if i shld consider dat a good or bad news. Good coz i really get sick n tired of sitting at home...slacking. The bad thing is b'coz i am LAZY! I guess dats all 2day i really want to go 2 the kitchen to look for foods!!

Shout out loud 2:

*darl*- I will b meeting u tomorrow after ur werk k. Meet me at the same place k. I really mizz u so much!

Fun!

2004-12-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

woke early morning..its time for make-up! oh gosh!! dis remind me how long i really get my hand off my make-up stuff! I juz dunch like to doll myself up since 2 years ago coz i juz dunch like to do facial every week, coz of my bz days. Recently, i put on a make-up and *darl* tole me dat i look ecven preetier w/o make-up there4 i remove the make up immediately. ahaz! thanks *darl* for making my life much more simple.

As i state above, i woke up early juz to cut my long wavy hair. I really feel sick n tired of my long hair coz ioways haf this headache if i tie my hair for long hrs. 1 solution is juz to cut it off ahaz! Dad drove us there but unfortunately the shop closed! haiz...hmmm!! Dad zoom us to orchard rd hmm..for shopping!! wooohoooo!! Dad get bonus dis year!! wow! I dunch really noe dat his salary is dat big! Dad, can i take ur place wen u retire?? ahaha err...nvm coz i dunch like anything to wif planning s'pore and its structure. Reach home quite to carry out our prayer and went out again to the nearest mall to get some foods!! I bought tidbits for tomorrow trip! I hope the wetaher will b good for sun tanning! But b4 dat im gg to apply sun tan lotion and especially SPF 56.

Okies i got to go need to prepare for tomorrow before mummy scream at me!! Conclusion: Really enjoy today and i really occupy myself with lotsa task to do in order to make the time flies as soon as possible juz to wait *darl* coming home frm werk!! Cao!

clue-less...

2004-12-17T16:22:00.000+08:00

i've lost my appetite and even worst i've lost 5kg. No wonder i feel so light like a feather..so thin yet small. I guess e part n parcel of life dat i wen thru all this while decrease the amt i weigh. Life is indeed boring since its still hols. Spent my tym reading lots of criminal books which i borrowed frm the NLB. On my way home, i saw dis malay couple (husband & wife) quarreling like nobody business. It is so shameful coz they shouted at each other in front of their adolescent. Sometimes i pity those children whose parent divorce n they b'come thier victim. They were neglected, and haf no proper guidance, support and care. Whenever im handling this type i case i really feel so sad coz most of e cases dat i handle, they are still in pre-schoolers. If one day i haf children i will try my best not to neglect them and gif them enuff love n care and will make family as the main pirority then my career. Actually im scared to even get married coz of the in-laws. Im so so scared, bt how to get cute children if i dun get married?? ahaz!!

rain, rain dun go away, coz it nice to slp dis way..heheh!! I love dis kind of climate -moist and cool. I wonder wat are my love ones are doing?? Are they out durin dis rainy season or staying indoor? No matter where u all are, i oways pray for ur safety.

PART 1: heartbroken... PART 2: enjoyable...

2004-12-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

PART 1

wen i wrote dis, i've just ended my conversation with *darl*. I dunnoe if i feel dissappointed or sad?? i am nt sure of my own feelings. I did this just for u, so as to make u happy. *darl* i noe u ever liked and loved her so much before and i am being very selfish towards u for making u lose ur friendship towards her and make u stop contacting her. I am so sorry *darl* i noe watever u do is just b'coz u dun want me to feel hurt or unhappy. I noe dat u wants to talk to her all dis while its juz dat u r scared dat u might hurt my feelings..c how loyal is my *darl* Now i am giving u chances for u to talk to her, be happy with her as u used to b and continue ur friendship. I shld be strong in gg thur all dis, altho its hard for me 2 take it but i trust u *darl*. If u are meant to be together with her then i shld say dat im unlucky and shld b strong in handling it. But u noe how hard for me to live w/o u...i love u b'coz i feel comfortable talking to u, u gif me the encouragement wen i struggle, u really make me so happy all this while. I dun really mind if u want to catch things up with her, u go ahead k, dun worry abt me i will b alrite. I just need to b strong in gg thru all dis. If anythhing were to happen i am nt gg to blame u k, i just haf to take it the way it is. I hope u will nt change the way u feel towards me after getting back to her....as fren. Coz i dun want anythign to happen between u and me...im very scared to lose a wonderful person like u. *darl* i will oways love u and i really treasure all the happy moment dat we went thru all dis while. I love u so much!!

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PART 2

Morning...oh gosh *darl* nt yet wake up hmm..wat time are we gg off?? Hm..nvm juz wait. His 3rd sis decided to follow...hmm dats great at least *darl* mummy haf someone 2 accompany her. Wen i met *darl* i feel so happy, coz i realli mizz him alot, lets put aside all the things dat occur dis early morning. It was great gg out wif them, its my 1st time gg johor taking the 170 bus weeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Oh yah!! B4 we went shopping we took our lunch at Komtar Pizza Hut, i get myself a nice and fancy slippers. Tot of buying shoes bt the design are nt so nice and mostly are heels!! I hate to wear heels coz it will bite my skin n flesh! *darl* i still like the cute slip-on slippers its nice and cute..hehe. Mizi wen to search for me, unfortunatley wen he SMS me im oredi at the s'pore checkpoint, maybe some other time k Mizi. I think i noe wat to get *darl* for his b'dae. *darl* i am so happy todae coz i get to c u, especially gg out wif ur mummie and sis. *darl* im begging u to stop smoking plsssssssssss....................

Harppie...

2004-12-15T16:58:00.000+08:00

withheld?? who the heck called me early in the morning. haiz...whoever she/he is juz can't b bothered. For the whole morning n half afternun i've been sitting on my yellow chair just to do dis bloggy. I feel so proud of myself coz i've learnt smtg new dis hols..learning how to do dis webpage using html codes!! Weee!! A big thank to my junior sis- siti for helping me thru this stuff...hey u are a great help gerl!! Im nt too expertise in dis stuff and i need guidance n sis im craving to learnt more abt it frm u! ahaz!
Im gald to hear dat Mizi has recover frm his flu..alhamdulillah. Now he went to skol oredi, im wondering how my grp of frens can really travel every wk frm s'pore to Johore to earn knowledge. Thankzz Mizi for giving me dat BLUE song in my voicemail. Hm...so sweet of u.
Okies i guess i've praise other ppl more than i praise *darl*. im sure my *darl* will look at me 1 kind if i kept praising other ppl especially guys ahaz!! true or not *darl*?? Hmm...my *darl* is e one who gif me the encouragement to b patience in handling stuff and im proud to say he is mine!! *darl* i can't wait 2 meet u tomorrow wif ur mummie and bro. Ahaz!! I dunch noe what shld i wear tomorrow? Smtg sexier?? hahaha juz jokin *darl*..u noe me im oways ur noti gerl.

winky!

2004-12-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

I am a good gerl todae!! Lets give me ard of applause. haha. I did housewerk the whole day, and help my granny to cook...yummy!! Help dad to do some stuff...errr for the 1st time i really enjoy it blueekkk!! Internet are getting so lame dis days...nothing much to surf. Early morning chat wif ahmad juz to let time pass by very fast wuhuuuiii!! I was reluctant dis morning coz i get missed call frm Harun as early as 7.07am....as i tot its Saiful..ahaz! Wondering wat he wants..hmmm..haizzz no appetite to eat huh?! haaz..wateva lah! *darl* sure to ask me abt dis..hey *darl* dun worry k me still stick wif u...eheh.
3rd of Jan 05...wat!!! 2005!! It is so fast....i am gg to say bui bui to 2004 it was so fast like a flash of lightning! Hm..did 2004 brings me good health?? good life?? Im nt so sure...hmmm...As i promise to open my student portal and there the mail state...SCHEDULE FOR NEXT SEMESTER!! Duh~~ as i guessed. January will b a busy month for me..hope i can handle it properly and wisely. Practicum?? Hmm... im scared!! I hope 2005 will bring me good health, 'murah rezeki' and all the good things.
Dis weekend im gg for a short hols and dis thursday i am gg to Johor with *darl*....